Wednesday, June 29, 2005
the sound of silence
ok, I am sorry for the lack of posts. One reason for my grouchiness and lack of writing is that I was thinking I could finally post the father’s day post that has been in the works for the last 4 years. As some of you know, my dad died a few years ago. He was relatively young; it was unexpected (well, to us, but we suspect he knew more as he had a heart syndrome - Wolf-Parkinson-White Syndrome, which essentially meant that sometimes his heart had a double beat)
Anyhoos, I guess I am just not ready for the whole post, but here is what I can say:
It’s not so much about Father’s Day as it is all of the weekends of summer: picnics, going to the beach, going swimming, grilling out, watching my dad try to climb palm trees or swimming out past the breakers, no uniforms, no stiff hair (it looks like painted on plastic hair in this photo!), no work, music, quiet sunday mornings, relaxing and reading. Summer was my dad’s season (and I don’t have many photos because my mom has most of them, but here is one I stole off of my family’s genealogy site).
Thursday, June 23, 2005
now that I’ve scared everyone anyway
I’m in the process of uploading a ton of photos including a bunch of ‘lost’ digital photos from baja. Nothing too spectacular, but they are kind of pretty.
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
the soapbox of negativeland
I’ve realized in the last few days that I’ve just been beseiged with negativity. It seems to be coming from all directions. Now I didn’t really have this mini-epiphany without some help. First, I was listening to an interview with Peter Max this morning. I love his work. Peter, I know you’ll read this(BA HA HA), so how about sending me a groovy little vw convertible like the one in Austin Powers?
Anyhow, he was talking abit about his change in style from realism to pop art (cosmic groovy, is more like it) because he was having no success with his realistic stuff. Which sort of started me thinking about my own style, success and my current creativity/painters block.
Secondly, I ran into someone who said ‘good morning, beautiful day’ this morning to which I replied without much thought, ‘yeah, but it’s going to be a scorcher later.’
Hmm. negativity. I felt kind of bad for being so negative in the face of someone so cheerful, which made me think a little more about why I’m feeling negative.
I think I am drowning in the negativity of others. Talk about a ripcurrent!
I do have some really great people in my life but some of the others....
I seem to be one of those people who just attract the negatives, the drama kings and queens, the depressed, miserable, confused, obsessives. Is it a matter of two magnets, like attracting like? Or am I like a roll of doublesided sticky tape, ‘collecting’ these people up?
Of course, I can see part of the thinking behind the negativity because I used to do it alot more. They overcommit themselves, they can’t say no, or they feel guilty for thinking of themselves first. They want people to respect them and are concerned that they won’t be. Or perhaps, they are afraid that if they are not constantly in the limelight, people will forget about them or even worse find out they a fraud (which none of the people I know are, but at least several of them believe that they ‘will be found out’ any minute.)
We all do it sometimes but dear friends, family, etcs. please think about how you use your energy. Do you really want to spend the rest of your lives dancing with the darkness (and I’m not talking about the rock band....) ?
I don’t. I know that our time here is short. So, LET IT GO. Stop obsessing and try not to just say yes without thinking and please remember I can’t and won’t be your emotional punching bag.
Saturday, June 18, 2005
what’s my story, all fame, no glory?
Ok, I know that some of you drink as much coca cola as I do, so if you happen to come across a ‘free music download’ or walmart free music downloads code on a box of coca cola beverages, doritos, etc. and you don’t have a mp3 and/or someone to give it to already, rather than toss it in the recycle/trash unused, do a good deed and send the code on to
...because I am totally jonesing (Sp?) for the new oasis album. Sigh. I just can’t let go of my brit pop tendencies. I just read an article about late 80s/early 90s brit pop and I thought, I
can’t believe that I have (or had in some cases) every one of the CDs listed. So, I guess I’ll just have to throw oasis into the mix because well, it’s SOOOO different. (NOT!)
ok, lush was not listed and the smiths are little bit gloom for the brit pop (ok, I know cemetary gates is still one of my favorite songs, and it’s not very gloomy at alll...) and they didn’t even mention the mighty lemon drops which are right smack in the brit pop world, in my book. Maybe they weren’t channeling the psychelic 60s enough, for the genre…
Funny, I like lots of different kinds of music (I’ve seen folks from james taylor the christian death--ok, they were really kind of scary...imagine)
but I really do seem to gravitate back to the brit pop.
...and some artists are always there, like johnny cash....
Thursday, June 16, 2005
Ok, i haven’t done this in a while and I have a small collection of interesting or fun links gathering in my inbox. Thanks to those who send me these. Sometimes these are art related, most likely just things for my amusement.